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Gossip alert not about him

Yep, as expected, Jenni shows up at 12:15 at work. Tells Miss W. that she’s here to apologize. So now the gossip begins. I can’t talk to her here. There is no way in the world. Call me, yes, but I can’t have this conversation at work. And I turn around at my desk to find that she’s standing across the room (in the public area) staring at me. Telling Miss W. everything, I’m sure. Ai.

What to do? I suppose I will have to call her. But I’m going to call our minister first. I can’t be in conversation with her without someone else there to mediate. I can't even accept an apology. I will need to apologize too, but I must make it clear how upsetting this is to be doing over and over. There is no call for her to be so consistently… un-Christian. Or, if you wish to be secular, negative. I can't take her talking him down (only I can do that) and I can't take her summation of a process that ultimately worked as Satanic because it made her cry. Geez, as upsetting as last night was, I wouldn't characterize her as evil.

But most of all, with all the other drama in my life, I simply can't take her presence in my life. And if that means I withdraw from all church-related activities, so be it. It's just too much. As I said over and over last night: I can't do this anymore.